Eddie S.G. EP III

If This Is Love & Picking Up The Pieces
Written, recorded, edited, & mixed by Eddie S. Gonzalez (ASCAP)
Produced by Eddie S.G. (ASCAP)

Far From Here
Written, recorded, edited, & mixed by Eddie S. Gonzalez (ASCAP)
Produced by Eddie S.G. (ASCAP)
Additional vocals by Lillian Clarke

Mood
Written, recorded, edited, & mixed by Eddie S. Gonzalez (ASCAP)
Produced by Demaeron Effect (ASCAP) in Tamaqua, PA & Tampa, FL at TFPS Studios

Here We Go Again (Feat. Lee Ranghell)
Written, recorded, edited, & mixed by Eddie S. Gonzalez (ASCAP)
Charlton Rangel's vocals recorded by Charlton Rangel in Miami, FL at TFPS Studios
Produced by Eddie S.G. (ASCAP)

Wash Away My Pain
Written, recorded, edited, & mixed by Eddie S. Gonzalez (ASCAP)
Produced by Eddie S.G. (ASCAP)
Additional vocals by Jonathon Clarke

See Me (Feat. Ki's Garden)
Written, recorded, edited, & mixed by Eddie S. Gonzalez (ASCAP)
Samantha Sugarman's vocals recorded in New York, NY at TFPS Studios
Produced by Eddie S.G. (ASCAP)

All songs published by The Forward Progress Sound (ASCAP)
All songs recorded in Tamaqua, PA at TFPS Studios, except where indicated
All songs mastered by Landr Mastering & Eddie S.G.

Demaeron Effect (Eddie S.G. & Raymond Schellhorn) appears courtesy of The Forward Progress Sound
Lee Ranghell appears courtesy of The Forward Progress Sound
Lillian Clarke appears courtesy of herself
Jonathon Clarke appears courtesy of himself
Ki's Garden appears courtesy of herself

Executive Producer: Eddie S.G.
Album artwork by Eddie S.G.

This EP is dedicated to Aida L. Gonzalez. Rest in peace abuela.

If This Is Love
(If this is love) If this is love I don't want it (I don't want it)
(If this is love) If this is love I don't want it (I don't want it)

Going through a break up, having a break down
Or maybe a breakthrough, I do this better without you
(If this is love)
(If this is love)
Going through a break up, having a break down
Or maybe a breakthrough, I do this better without you (without you)

(If this is love) If this is love I don't want it (I don't want it)
(If this is love) If this is love I don't want it (I don't want it)

(If this is love) If this is love I don't want it (I don't want it)
I don't want it
(If this is love) If this is love I don't want it (I don't want it)
I don't want it

I'm talking to you, the old me
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Far From Here
I need to get far from here
I need to get far from here
So you can't pull me down with you, no more
You can't pull me down with you, no more

Looking at a beautiful sky through a dirty window
Tired faces, bobbing heads need a pillow
Perspective, riding through my train of thought
Going through the maze still, trying not to get caught
Hating life, dead end 9 to 5 like a zombie
That's the moment you get slapped by reality
Sucked into the misery with everyone, boxed in
Trying to cope with it but what are my options?
Drank 'til I passed out, that was my mother's route
& her father's route, should I tap out?
Give in to the hunger? add to my sin?
Am I to blame or was it built-in?
Got to be another plain, somewhere I can soar
Have to break the cycle, feel a need to be more
Humble, but when I make it will pride get in my way? (way)
All I know is I can't stay

I need to get far from here
I need to get far from here
So you can't pull me down with you, no more
You can't pull me down with you, no more

People I look up to quit doing what they love
Or took their own lives, so they can be free of
All the pressure & everything they had to be
But really, what does that say about me?
Am I in love with the struggles provided?
Am I truly lost or just misguided?
I feel lied to, forced to maintain
Conform to the norm, get in line, be the same
Guess I just think different, I could never obey
'Cause that's not me, so I need to get away
Far from the negativity they transmit
Repel you like virgin lungs when a cig's lit
Got to find that other plain, somewhere I can soar
Have to break the cycle, feel a need to be more
Humble, but when I make it will pride get in my way? (way)
All I know is, all I know is I can't stay

I need to get far from here
I need to get far from here
So you can't pull me down with you, no more
You can't pull me down with you, no more
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Mood
Don't judge me by one track or one act
'Cause you might have just seen me react
You're not mad all the time, neither am I
It's my mood, I say what I'm feeling at the time
Not holding my tongue, why try
Last time I checked, this was my rhyme
I say what I feel, so feel what I say
So if I say it mean, I mean what I say
Don't think for a second you can get to me
Try to put me down, I already said I'm nobody
No caffein needed, I'm my own pick-me-up
Don't get used to me, I like to switch it up
Split personality, split brain
Different genres, different names, yet all the same
At The Party Alone, 'Abstract, or 'Theory
They're all me, all me, Eddie S.G.

If you have time to show me hate
You're really just showing me love
It won't alter how I create
Because I just rise above (rise above)
That's how I see it
That's my mood (that's my mood)

Love me with your mind, not your heart
Love me for my mind, not my body parts
Pain forces me to write
So I express myself, giving all I have every night
Love me 'cause the beat touches your soul
Not because of how much it sold
Love me 'cause my words relate to you
Not because someone tells you to
So I don't do this for members of a board
Which is why I don't do this for awards
I don't like how the industry is ran
It only means something if it's coming from the fans
I don't do this for girls or money
I don't do this for material things, that's not me
I do this for the love of music only
The pursuit of happiness, for you & me

If you have time to show me hate
You're really just showing me love
It won't alter how I create
Because I just rise above (rise above)
That's how I see it
That's my mood (that's my mood)
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Here We Go Again
You always got a problem
Starting something
Can't be happy
& I'm always defending myself (exhale)

I'm arguing the situation, you're calling me names
I'm trying to understand what's with all the claims
Loading up your ammo, taking aim
You're bringing up things from months ago, throwing blame
You're still holding on, why didn't you bury that?
Balling up emotions inside like a pack rat
My nature is to mend & heal boo
But if you want to tear it down, I'll let you, you're nothing special
See, I got a bullet too, insomniac, no light
Pyro, burning bridges to see better at night
I just let it go, you can go with it, trust
You won't hear from me again, another one bites the dust

Here we go, again
Don't say things to hurt me when I tell you the truth
Here we go, again
Don't say things to hurt me when I tell you the truth
Here we go, again
Don't say things to hurt me when I tell you the truth
Here we go, again
Don't say things to hurt me when I tell you the truth (like)

Back when I was something, you really made me feel like I was nothing
That was the mood, that's why I moved
95 southbound doing 40 over
Cruising in the hooptie, acting like it's a rover
Screaming out these problems like therapy, were we
Meant to be or cut it short like an amputee?
When you try to hug me, I think you want to fight me
My guard's up, not used to you being nice to me
I hate that we're like this, you won't shut up
I don't want to dis you but you won't let up
Now I have to put you right back with the rest
Thought I had the right one, looks like I guessed

Wash Away My Pain
When I smile it's so empty you wouldn't believe me
When you see it so I tell you if need be (need be)
You see me joke, I laugh, but only in those moments
Distant in my mind like I lack the proper components
I don't condone it, out of touch like an older head
Sitting on my casket writing rhymes about my deathbed
Instead - of enjoying life, I listen to the bass drum
There's a hole in my heart where this comes from, please

Wash away all of my pain

So many tears in my short years, not 'cause of fear
But dead peers, I look for them, they're not here
Reality, saddened me, it's hard to unpack
Wondered if we had a time loan could we pay it back?
I mourned, age not grown then, I was on my own
Old enough to understand, I spoke with full tone
When I deliver this message, it's depression
This life chose me, I tell it to you like a lesson, please

Wash away all of my pain

Birthdays turn into deadlines, fine
How much money can I make to afford this cake?
Living check to check, it's all a wreck
Working every sec, past knee deep up to my neck
I chase money, I don't mean to bust no bubbles
I just do it to reduce these struggles
It's still not enough to bring down these costs
I need help, I don't ask for much, I'm lost, please

Wash away all of my pain

I survived a broken home, an empty home, all alone
Domestic violence 2 times, tough, it turned me into stone
Food stamps, bootcamp, crashing on my aunt's floor
In the sand box, surviving mortar shells at war
Homelessness, park bench, sleeping in my car
To out of state college debt, wishing on a star
But the hardest thing I ever did - was leave my kids in the divorce
Wish I could see you more, here for you, of course, please

Wash away all of my pain

Wash away, wash away
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See Me
I need you to see me
Hear me, touch me, feel me
I want you to want me
For me, hold me, love me

Working on being someone you could love
Going after everything I dream of, dream of, dream of
Tryna be a better me, for me & us
So every moment now from here on out is a plus
Picking myself up, getting out of my own way
Keeping my head up, today's a good day, good day
So one day at a time 'til it's full time
In the meantime, chill with me as I climb

I need you to see me
Hear me, touch me, feel me
I want you to want me
For me, hold me, love me

In return I will see you
Hear you, touch you, feel you
I'm here 'cause I want you
For you, to hold you, love you

I promise to see you
Hear you, touch you, feel you
I'm here 'cause I want you
For you, to hold you, love you
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Picking Up The Pieces
Pushed in a corner, shoved to the side
Part of me wanted to stay there & hide
Been in a funk, dark cloud, mistreated
Made excuses for them, as they repeated
Like I was sleep walking, to some degree
Going with the flow, not looking out for me
Had to switch my thought process, decompress
Focus on my success & not digress

I hope I'm not too late
Hope I'm not too late

Put my heart back in my chest, forget the rest
I will not go back, it's too depressed
You can get out too, don't act like you can't
Forget the excuses, quit with the rant
If you don't comprehend, you can't grow
Add it to the list of things you'll never know
No apology on the anecdote
Borderline diabetic, can't sugar coat

I choose me, choose you
I choose me, choose you

People I used to know, don't know me anymore
Since Free Fall, when I hit the floor
I was ready for change, I was pumped
I didn't lose my balance, I jumped
Had to remove the doubt, begin to heal
Picking up the pieces, reinforced with steal
Making sure what's left, is strong-willed
After killing off the old me, I rebuild

I rebuild
I rebuild