Eddie S.G. EP

Heart & Mind, Stronger Than Ever, Enjoying Myself, Daydreaming, & Amen
Written, recorded, edited, & mixed by Eddie S. Gonzalez (ASCAP)
Produced by Eddie S.G. (ASCAP)

Right Here
Written, recorded, edited, & mixed by Eddie S. Gonzalez (ASCAP)
Produced by Eddie S.G. (ASCAP)
Additional vocals by Ricardo Kroon

I Just Want To Live My Life
Written, recorded, edited, & mixed by Eddie S. Gonzalez (ASCAP)
Produced by Eddie S.G. (ASCAP)
Additional vocals by Eliza Ossorio

All songs published by The Forward Progress Sound (ASCAP)
All songs recorded in Queens, NY at TFPS Studios
All songs mastered by Landr Mastering & Eddie S.G.

Ricardo Kroon appears courtesy of himself
Eliza Ossorio appears courtesy of herself

Executive Producer: Eddie S.G.
Album artwork by Eddie S.G.

This EP is dedicated to Rosaura Hernandez. Rest in Peace mom.

Heart & Mind
This is a dedication, more like a celebration
Of life, this is your standing ovation
Ma, this was supposed to be you & I
You piggy back, I spread my wings to fly
But I took too long, 'cause now you're gone
Now everything just seems wrong
It feels weird not having you here
I apologize for my past fears
I wasn't ready to let people in
Putting off my music, not finishing
So this is me getting off my ass, go
Completing what I started years ago
Self-motivated
My thoughts are on Forward Progress, not on those who hate it
Yes, as I reflect through the stress
Put my tears through the wire & pray to God it catches fire

I keep you in my heart, you're always on my mind
You will live forever, forever through these rhymes
So I'm not going to say goodbye
'Cause I ain't get to say goodbye

Everything I see, you see, & touch, you touch
& that feeling just hurts so much
I miss you, these words I express with this pencil
Doesn't amount to half of what we've been through
But that's another song, for another day
That I wrote, but it doesn't take the pain away
I appreciate you dearly
I hope these words reach you sincerely
I write free, a page with no lines
Scribble something in the corner, stretch it to a rhyme
This is for you, 'cause you believed in this
Sleep, I place this on your forehead like a kiss
You got to see your boy become a man
This is one of many, a poem for my 1st fan
&, from my heart through this pen
Rest in peace, this love will never end

I keep you in my heart, you're always on my mind
You will live forever, forever through these rhymes
So I'm not going to say goodbye
'Cause I ain't get to say goodbye
-------------------------------------------------------------

Stronger Than Ever
See life through my eyes, answer my what's & why's
Feed my hunger, bless me with no lies
I let the beat guide my train of thought, it's ideal
I have no game, I'm just saying how I feel
Music is my first love, tied the knot
I do this for Hip-Hop, not for a wrist watch
I do it for the pain that I turned into bars
I let time turn my wounds into scars
I survived many things & you call me blessed
I let you tell it, you know, I guess
All alone, left to my own devices
Don't ever talk to me about sacrifices
Slept on the floor, on a bench, in the rain
Dreaming of a better day, every thing to gain
I did what I had to do, to maintain
I, of all people, know this is not a game

The struggle, the pain, keeps calling my name
The fears, the years, holding back my tears
& I'm still here (stronger than ever)
I'm still here ('cause I'm stronger than ever)

My words reach out & touch your soul
At times the mood is deep & the climate is cold
Some days I don't want to be bothered
& some days I'm just like why bother
Forgive me, I'm angry with a right to be
Pen & paper was my friend through all the difficulty
It put my past where it needed to be, behind me
To remind me to set my mind free
'Cause I was there too, rock bottom
I picked myself up, side-stepped my problems
Now it's Forward Progress, every day
I'm never going back, I pray
I fade the beat, so you can see
That before the instrumental there was just me
15 years in the making, wrote a book
Been a long time coming, Sam Cook

The struggle, the pain, keeps calling my name
The fears, the years, holding back my tears
& I'm still here (stronger than ever)
I'm still here ('cause I'm stronger than ever)

& if I quit now, then what's the point?
-------------------------------------------------------------

Right Here
You don't have to look around to find love
'Cause I'm right here, I'm right here

I'm trying to paint you this picture
with no crayons, no markers, no sorts of mixture
I miss ya when you're gone, no game, promise
I don't want to play, I want to stay, honest
I smile when I see you, you light up my day
You are like my sunshine on a rainy day
I'm blessed by you presence, engulfed in your aura
You know there's nothing I wouldn't do for ya
When I listen to you, I soak up your pain
When you're hurt, & when you're happy I'm the same
We are friends with a bond like a chain
Your being is imprinted on my brain
Though I've never been one for the spotlight
I was kind of hoping, thinking that we just might
Sit alone for a while, you & I
Talk about life under the stars in the sky

You don't have to look around to find love
'Cause I'm right here, I'm right here

Our conversations massage my mind
You're an intelligent creature, one of a kind
I wouldn't want to picture time without you, how do
I freeze this moment to stay right here, with you?
We should hang out more, see the sun rise
Preferably for the rest of our lives
I know nice guys finish last, here's a start
Let me be the one to put a band-aid on your heart
Ok, I can breathe now
But there's more, if you'll allow
Heart beating faster, feels like I'm rambling
Friendship on the line & I'm not one for gambling
Building up the courage to tell you how I feel
I need you to understand what I feel is real
I may need a drink, a second, or a third
I don't need 3 verses, I can say it in 3 words

I love you.. I love you.. & I'm right here, & I'm right here
I'm right here
-------------------------------------------------------------

Enjoying Myself
I just want to chill, no cares in the world
For the moment, just relax with my girl, I'm enjoying myself
Surrounded by my friends & fam
Having a good time's the plan, I'm enjoying myself

It's been a crazy week, time to unwind
Kick back (ah), & get everything off my mind
I'm ready for the weekend, begin
I can feel the excitement in the air, I won't pretend
Clearing (wooo), my schedule tonight
No music, no lyrics to write (uh uh)
I just need what matters the most (what's that)
To be around the ones I keep close (uh huh)
I don't need to go out, not the club type (nope)
Been there, done that, earned my stripes (yep)
I don't like loud music, it's pointless
I can't enjoy this convo like I'm deaf (what?)
Doubling fisting it, refills in 2's (yeah)
I got blurry vision, I see double you's (hey)
Nah, that was the old me, old rhymes
I don't need liquor to have a good time

I just want to chill, no cares in the world
For the moment, just relax with my girl, I'm enjoying myself
Surrounded by my friends & fam
Having a good time's the plan, I'm enjoying myself

(Huh) I am like nobody you've ever met
I think louder than I speak, better yet
One thing's for sure
When I'm looking at the floor I'm really planning out my future
-------------------------------------------------------------

Daydreaming
Deep in thought sometimes I float away
It must be a good day
I'm daydreaming, daydreaming
Daydreaming, daydreaming
Up early in class
How am I going to pass?
I'm daydreaming, daydreaming
Daydreaming, daydreaming
There's a girl that sits close by
Wow, she is so fly
I'm daydreaming, daydreaming
Daydreaming, daydreaming
She's a beauty, omg
Smiley face, 143
I'm daydreaming, daydreaming
Daydreaming, daydreaming
I look as she walks past
Man, she got a nice Hey
I'm daydreaming, daydreaming
Daydreaming, daydreaming
Um, I'm in love
My head is in the clouds above
I'm daydreaming, daydreaming
Daydreaming, daydreaming
I know there's no doubt
I should pay attention but it's nice out
I'm daydreaming, daydreaming
Daydreaming, daydreaming
Laying here on the beach
Woke up still in my seat
I'm daydreaming, daydreaming
Daydreaming, daydreaming
I had me a little snack
Yeah, I went right back
I'm daydreaming, daydreaming
Daydreaming, daydreaming
If I dose off right now
My feet will never touch the ground
I'm daydreaming, daydreaming
Daydreaming, daydreaming
I fell right into the beat
After the production was complete
I'm daydreaming, daydreaming
Daydreaming, daydreaming
Yeah, today was a good day
Don't want this feeling to go away, but
I'm daydreaming, daydreaming
Daydreaming, daydreaming
-------------------------------------------------------------

I Just Want To Live My Life
Searching for happiness I got lost
Kept looking though at any cost
Found depression, my heart grew frost
'Cause those streets seem to never cross
Maybe I'm looking in the wrong place
Maybe it's staring at me in the face
Can't find my way, running through a maze
Optimistic, dreaming better days
I look up when the rain falls
My screams echo through these empty halls
Somewhere I lost a piece of me
Thunder toying with my PTSD
I ask question, speak run-on sentences
'Cause I can't make sense of this
I throw my hands in the sky
I refuse to let life pass me by

Could you tell me what it is you want from me
(I just) I just want to live my life
(I just want to live my life, my life)

Feel the pain you hear in my voice
I feel like ain't have a choice
These words detach from my mind
But it's me confined here between the lines
Stress building up with no release
All I wish for is peace
I see nightmares though I'm not asleep
Who knew these cuts were so deep
The more I run you give chase
I can't breathe in this small space
Don't play cards, don't understand
How did I get dealt a bad hand?
I need somewhere to unwind
Too many thoughts racing through my mind
Put it on paper for later then fold
There's just too much that 16 can't hold

Could you tell me what it is you want from me
(I just) I just want to live my life
(I just want to live my life, my life)
-------------------------------------------------------------

Amen
Forgive me for my evil ways, that were in my past
My twisted thoughts that create a contrast
Help me find the words, I am in your hands
Bless me with your light, so I understand
There were many moments when I didn't want to be here
Down & out, I really couldn't see clear
In a fog of war, angry all the time
& I needed help, but not the human kind
I wrote it all down, to escape the sadness
Madness, how did I withstand this?
When I lost my faith, you helped me find it
When I felt alone, you had me guided
Then you abandoned me, at least I felt you did
Placed me in a violent home then saw me out of it
Then I was out it, drifting
Drinking, something's missing
I stumbled off the path & you caught me
Grateful doesn't quite cut it, I'm sure you'd agree
though I cannot touch you, I want you to hold me
I look to no one else but you, show me
Help me be a better servant, a better man
A better husband, a better dad
'Cause I am nothing here without you
You're the most high, the one truth

Amen